An Official Holiday
I have never admired about official holidayes. Actually I barely abide it. It seems as if a few dayes before a holiday there is a huge funnel beyond the sky. It grows more and more, deformes the everyday life, mix up all jobs and business and then it absorb people which are teared from their surface spase into something another.
Mine shell of ordinary human life is so thin that the Twister Funnel of Holidayes produce a big hole, the Gap-of-surface-Reality.
There is several actions which can recover the balance. First of all, I should go to my parents and spent the time with my family. But, oh my god! - it is so hard! Yes, this action could mend the edges of Gap, and the price is too much wasted time. In the past people selebrated by eating. Today this is nothing, especially for vegetarian. There is no properly family feelings which are so cureness for mind. I could feel myself much more better is it will be a weekly job for several hours. I could done it with great care and effectiveness, without any wishes for gratitude or plasure. It would be the thing must be done and useful. However the ordinary visit seems unuseful and wasting of time for fuss, ating and bustling. Because of that I don`t like to use the first way.
The second way is to walk. I like it. But it depends on weather, open or closed shops etc.
Third way is to work. Oh, this is really independant way to have a holiday! Therefore my choice is clear. On Official holiday I have to work. Differencies? In ordinary day I work properly without any disturbance/
On holiday I have to work more in unpleasant feeling of my own Gap, trying to cover myself against parent`s expectations and with an abscure waiting of something special. That is why I have never liked an official holiday.
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